Life Inside the Looking-Glass

"For now we see through a glass darkly, then face to face: now I know in part, then I shall know even as also I am known." -1 Corinthians 13:12 KJV

As I start this weblog, I am in a relatively low place, vibrationally. I lost my job shortly before Christmas, I live at home with my parents at 35 years old, and my love life is basically non-existent. I am donating plasma just for an income of some kind, and a lack of my desires dominates my attention. I am looking at my life as though it is a dim image in a foggy mirror.

The truth is, most of us look at our lives in this way. For most people, life "happens" to them, and they respond with emotional reaction. But life does not have to be this way. We can clear the fog that makes the glass dark, a little at a time, or all at once; the gradual way is easier, but it does take time.

Paul spoke of seeing "face to face;" he meant just what I'm talking about here. He was talking about the quicker, more difficult way of Initiation, I am certain, but the image that he was talking about meeting "face to face" is the "real" person inside us all... The True Inner Being which is in constant contact with, and IS, the Divine Presence. Paul wanted to convey the idea that life as we usually see it is but a pale reflection of the underlying reality of Spirit.

So begins my journey. I am starting near the bottom, but all that means is, there is nowhere to go but UP. When I can look at the positive aspects of everything in my life experience, when I can stop resisting the flow of Well-Being that my physical body conducts naturally, when I can allow myself to accept myself with Unselfish Love, then I will see my Creator face to face, and see that I Am he, and He is Me, and We Know and are Known.

And so, Life is Good, despite all appearance to the contrary. Here we go.

Good morning!

Welcome to my weblog. My given name is Matthew T Aimone, and I am a seeker. I have sought answers to all kinds of questions, great and small, my entire life; my favorite questions have always been "How?" and "Why?" I'll most likely repeat them and delve into answering them a lot here on my new blog, titled, "Annaërullo Awakening."

For instance, "Why such a funny title?" Well, you see, I'm kind of a geek. My favorite movies are Star Wars and The Matrix. My favorite book is The Lord of the Rings, and language fascinates me; so, I broke down my name (Matthew) into its original meaning ("gift from god") and translated that into Quenya, the language of the Elves in Tolkien's earliest stories of Middle-earth. "Anna" means gift; "Eru" is the name he gives the One. "-llo" is the conjugated suffix for motion from, hence, "Annaërullo," where the diaresis (umlaut) indicates a separate vowel sound (no diphthong); also, it looks pretty. The diaresis also adds to a "crown-like" aspect of the visual aesthetic of the word itself, which alludes to the king-in-exile aspect of my favorite character in LotR, Aragorn.

Okay, nerd, but why "Awakening?" As I said, I am a seeker. I've been tracking down what I call the "Common Thread" of all religions and philosophies for the last several years. That Common Thread is not so much a teaching as it is a process, of emerging from the sleep of everyday life into an awakened presence.

This blog is meant to share my experience of that process with whomever finds it of interest. So I hope you stay tuned. I'm looking forward to the journey!