Please forgive my absence from the blogosphere (is that still a thing?) but I have been having, and am continuing to have, an ancient and epic battle raging in my consciousness.
I have taken to calling it "Darth Adamant." It is my "Inner Sith," my Ego, my selfish, separate self, locked in a spiritual combat with my True, Universal, Inner Being. This Duel rages even as I type this. It creates my world, it informs all my decisions, it makes me feel, in a word, unstable.
This is just a part of it. A trial. A challenge to overcome. I can and will prevail. I must. If I fail, I die. If I succeed, I die. Either way, what bliss?
Okay, that was a little dark humor, partly from the Addams Family movie sequel. This is the Ego's way of changing the subject. I parried that last riposte, Darth. What else you got?
The key to overcoming the selfish separate self is to become aware of it.
I am, slowly, becoming aware of it.
It is not going down without a fight.
But the key, I have heard, is not to fight it, but to LOVE it.
I have a bad feeling about this.